| I am here to learn from all in the lifestyle. Learn skills and what is not appropriate. Take the good with the bad and find my niche.
I was introduced to this lifestyle by a man. He awoke in me the darkness I have tried hard to suppress. Believing that I was not suppose to have that part or at the very most expose it. However, it is there and was dormant awaiting to rise like the Phoenix.
I am submissive to a Master that I choose but am alpha in my world outside of Him. I am a sadist and am cruel but love the pain inflicted on me. I am an algolagniac and gain sexual pleasure from every flog, whip, crop, slap, cut and burn inflicted on my body.
The bruises are always so pretty and mesmerising.
I am an oxymoron. I am giggly and silly but sad and melancholic at times. I am brutally honest but have to lie for others. I am egotistical but shy. I am highly intelligent but at times obtuse. I am open-minded but stubborn. I heal but inflict pain knowingly. I am a peackeeper but will fight for the rights of others and advocate for those I love. I love time on my own but dislike being alone. I am extroverted but shy. I know I can do better and I am striving to be the best woman I can and will always be the best submissive to a Master I choose.
I am opinionated but refrain from judging. I will only offer my opinion or insights when I feel highly compelled and I will gladly debate with you when I know that I will win. I have yet to find another who can match my ability to sustain logical and sequential argument void of irrational emotion. To some that may appear arrogant or without humility but I am humble in truth. I see my truths and those of others and I have learned that I will not hide my strengths through concern of offence.
I wear my strengths and weaknesses with pride because they form who I am. I have a wonderful foundation of vanilla friends but they do not understand this part of me. I am looking for acceptance, lessons, growth, laughter and love. I want my world shaken and rocked to its very foundation.
I am growing and evolving. My life is changing rapidly and I am losing sight of who I was. Yet I know I am about to find who I am to become |
