How, in a few paragraphs, I am to paint an accurate portrait of who I am, and what I want and need, to the degree that someone will recognize and be inspired by the resonance of a potentially unique connection is becoming quite mystifying?
Since I was quite young, I have been fascinated by subjects like philosophy and psychology, among others, as these seem to be the best tools available to understand and be more aware of the mysteries about who I and others are at the deepest levels as well as life and all aspects of the world we live in.
I tend to believe that having been open to thinking beyond the boundaries of culturally acceptable thought early on helped me to be open to looking more deeply at my own more archetypical desires and needs, and to feel how much emotional energy could be felt in more freely expressing primordial urges of being in control of, and having the power to just being able to take what I desired. How fascinating it is then to find the compatibility of the same understanding and feeling in someone with whom it is released through by a process of letting go to that external control and power. So obviously, the physical part of the relationship is often one bridge to a deeper understanding of our own self, and of each other. Physical exploration can also help us to approach and experience some of those depths that we strongly desire to know more about, but might be too apprehensive, or not have the strength or ability, to reach on our own.
Each relationship should develop into natural, personal experiences based on the desires, drives, needs and capacities of each precious, unique couple. And for me, there is much focus on understanding the experience of the mind and spirit, and trying to reach inside to the core being of who we both are, and sharing that with each other.
I don’t mean to babble on about what you may already well know. My point is that for me it is about an exploration on a number of deeper, connected levels, and not just trying to find a quick thrill by doing someone considered “wrong”, or to escape boredom.
So, another mystery presents itself. Where is that unique woman who would appreciate an intelligent, aware, and imaginative approach to a relationship, and realize that those traits alone would indicate something unique and special and real that might reach deeply into both of us and beyond the superficial, stereotypical imitations of scenes and encounters that seem to be prevalent? Is the problem that I don’t beat my chest and try to grunt louder than the rest of the pack? I’m sorry if I don’t play everyone else’s game, but though I tend to want to find my own unique path, don’t think that means I am in any way lacking in either strength or determination.
To be a bit more descriptive of myself, I have been described (perhaps too often) as a gentleman. In addition to being somewhat discrete and circumspect about how I may express myself, I am very attracted to women who are also confident, intelligent, aware, classy (not snooty or airy) and socially comfortable, as well as have a sense of what might be very attractive to a man. For me, a woman who knows how to dress well on occasion, or be dressed, looking good in hose and heels, will immediately touch a strong, reflexive emotional part of myself. We all have a multitude of dimensions about who we are inside, which I would want to understand, cherish and respect about you to be able to flow together in and out of the many roles and situations we are in every day.
Obviously, there is not enough room here to even begin to describe what is in my thoughts and imagination, but hopefully I expressed enough to create a bit of resonance with someone special I would love to find. It has been a long time for me waiting for that to happen, but I guess it is an indication of who I am that I will not compromise myself and settle for something less than what I envision and know is possible, even if I must be even more patient than I have been.
By the way, all of the above is just the tip of the iceberg as far as I can tell. Also, if it seems to be lacking in more descriptive detail of what could be in terms of things like scenes and what I think about, I guess that would be something better expressed in any communication that might grow and develop from this.
I am hoping to meet and connect on a deeper level with someone who understands much of what I expressed in my profile. I would love to find and have the chance to develop a special relationship with someone who wants to immerse themselves with me in exploring, experiencing, and satisfying the depths of emotion and feeling that we both need and want.
