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No one could have told me 5 years ago what I would have to learn, experience, and enjoy when walking into a BDSM community and relationship. It is not something you can put down in words some days, but it is a beautiful path. It is filled with bright colors of joy and deep darkness of our shadowy selves. We get to high dive into the deep parts of our inner selves, and see from many different levels what we are. When explored to this extreme, you don’t come out the same as you entered. And the question stands, would I ever wish that I didn’t take that step. The answer….no. I would have never become fully at peace with who I am naturally.
In a factual manner, I am a student majoring in business. I also learn bellydancing on the side, and follow a very earth based faith. Certified in massage, but not active in practising it.
I have figured out though that I need something special in a relationship where I get to explore my submission and love for pain. I want someone that understands the growth that comes from learning the energy of power between two souls. It needs to be real, so in this manner I am not in it for online relationships. I do though love having friends, and in that manner it is great.
I want a master who can help me grow and respect me enough make some decisions for myself. One who understands that there is a vanilla life, and that we need to live in it. That our relationship is strong enough to trust me in that world. In other words, I will not revolve my life around BDSM and want someone is of same spirit.
I am far from perfect, and have some insecurities. I recognize them as something I need to work on as an individual, and not something anyone else can "fix" for me.
I love to get to know you as a friend before playing, so realize I might take things slow.
-c
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