A novice dominant; not quite certain where I yet fit into this lifestyle, as much of the language and ritual are still unknown to me.
I began exploring this vein in myself after several women have told me that I am natural at it, and it has chosen me, rather than the other way around. Most of my D&S experiences so far have been online, and they have been (continue to be) amazing journeys of discovery for myself and my partners.
Several 'normal' relationships have left me thinking that they might be right in their assessments, as their downfall usually seemed to be due to no incompatibility other than clash of wills. I've never left a relationship with animosity, only sadness and longing for what could have been.
I am seeking guides and fellow travelers on this path, ones to learn from, teach to, and grow with. I look at this as not a purely sexual outlet, but a life philosophy. If a relationship were to come of it, then all the better. I am not looking to adopt any subs in the near future, but intimate moments of connection with those who have a symbiotic curiosity are always appreciated. My ideal partner with whom to explore this would be one who was lesser experienced herself, but still secure in the knowledge of what she wants, even if only in a vague sense; a traveling companion on this long and strange path of discovery.
I am not seeking one who would throw herself completely to my own will immediately; I have had such offers, and frankly, they disturb me. What attracts me most to this is the total, unconditional trust that is required between a pair.. and such trust takes a great deal of time to cultivate. I could not trust anyone who was willing to circumvent that long and delicious process. For the moment.. I am seeking friends more than anything; so if anything here strikes you as interesting, please do not hesitate to drop a line. I have no expectations upon meeting someone, even if it be only online, other than some lively conversation. If it should go somewhere after that, we merely take each phase as it comes.
The place that I live is quite shallow in general, so reaching out beyond it has become necessary. You have read this far, that is telling in itself. Godspeed on your journeys.
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