| There are many sides to me. So, many I am still discovering them myself. I have been here before but never really committed to any relationships or even friendships, though I did have a few friends here and then left with dreams and fantasies swarming my brain and the illusion that I had found my One. IN the process I hurt some people too, though I did learn and grow from it all, It has been a few years and I have come to realize that what I search for is not a relationship so much as friendship and camaraderie with people who might be as twisted and deviant as I.
I believe myself to be a spiritual man with permanent kink on the brain. I am a paradox and a contradiction. I believe domination and submission are different halves of the same coin depending on the people involved in the relationship. Submission is a gift and a privilege, as is dominance. Neither should be lightly given or taken.
Love is not something I require in the way of sweep me off my feet or lasso you the moon. I had love and I lost it. But what is more important is I learned from the losses too. There is truly not many fantasies that I have left that have not been fulfilled. I believe fantasies develop and grow along with a relationship and vary depending on individuals involved.
I call myself a switch in spite of the fact that in most of my personal relationships I was submissive. In my world I am dominant. Once I was told I was an alpha male slave and so I became one. Once I was called Master, and I grew to be one. Both experiences were real, intense, an me. The difference was in the ladies fantasies and desires, not mine. I have felt and exalted in everything from chastity devices to holding a whip. In short, there is little about sex and this lifestyle that does not excite me.
I created this profile in order to see if I can find and reconnect with them old friends I have to make a few heartfelt apologies and thank yous. There is one on here who has helped me to grow and learn more than any other and I am hopeful She will be my friend forever.
Thank you for looking at my profile and please feel free to write. I reply to all emails and no chat requests.
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