| I've only just discovered this site and...well, not anymore. I really should edit that out. (But Christ, I wrote so much! Where do I begin?!) Honestly, I should edit this a lot more since I've realized I spelled my freaking name wrong. If you've ever seen "Tabris Macbeth" on Fanfiction (dot) net (fucking bullshit content filter) or YouTube, that's me! Same guy...just forgot to put in that B in "Macbeth"...and yes, the guy who writes softcore lesbian erotica and makes Dada-esque videos is at a kinky sex site! SURPRISE!
(And speaking of editing, what's with this ugly "dirty vanilla" highlighting my text has? It's completely hideous and I can't get rid of it! What's the point in changing the background color with my text is radiating an aura of bleh?)
I really should go over this profile better sometime, but here's something I want to make crystal clear: Do not waste my time. I am not playing around here. I am not going to be nice all the time, I am not going to say anything because you want to hear it, I am not going to jump through hoops to please you, and if you're not serious, don't give me any "Sir" this or "this girl" that. Unless you seriously want a relationship with me, talk like a normal human being. I was stabbed in the back by who I thought was the greatest person in the world (yet again) and I have beyond lost any tolerance for whiny little cretins who always play the victim. Pull that shit with me, and I will come down on you like the hammer of God.
Now...on with the profile...
Okay, starting out with something pleasant...since I complain enough as it is... I think I...uh...well, I don't wanna call myself a "daddy dom"! I'm way to young in every aspect to call myself that! I guess that's kinda what I feel like, but I'm so uncomfortable with the idea of anyone who isn't my child calling me "Daddy". It makes me feel like some middle aged pervert. Um, think of me more like a...big brother dom! I mean, sans the incest vibe. I like the idea of patting girls on the head while they call me their "nii-nii". (And thanks, Higurashi, for planting that idea in my head.)
No, you aren't getting my picture. I very much value my anonymity. I'm an intensely private person offline and I don't want my two worlds bleeding into each other until I'm damn good and ready to combine them. Besides, this is a matter of trust. If I do give you a picture, it's because I trust you with both my online and offline personae. Until that time comes, though, I promise I'll never ask for a picture from you if you don't ask one of me. And I will certainly never ask for anything dirty! I'm considerably less of a prude than I formerly was, but dirty words alone make me blush. A girl I like giving me a nudey pic of herself...oh goodness...
(smiles slyly) There's another reason: I would very much like to seduce someone with my words alone. I want to make a girl want me with my charmingly insane personality, and not have to rely on a pretty face (and I do like to think I have a pretty face, even if I couldn't take a good picture to save my life). I want you to want me because you can't get my words out of your head. I want to hide in plain view and still be a mystery. I want to seem dangerous, and crazy, and comforting, and cute all at the same time. I want you to obsess over me. I want you to get addicted to me. I want to dominate you not by being stern or direct, but with what an old friend of mine called "velvet violence". I speak softly, I speak with the slightest smile on my lips, and there's power behind that. There's this restained power that, in it's sublty, pierces through your defenses with cold precision. I look harmless, but you can feel how dangerous I am. As I reach out to you, I could so easily crush you...but instead, I simply pat you on the head and smile a little more. I ask you something sweetly, and you give a quiet nod. And look look up at me with awe, frightened and seduced by this overwhelmingly subtle power...
The reverse is true, too. Believe it or not, I really am looking for personality. I don't care how pretty you are, I will not give you the time of day if you're a dullard who's devoid of a personality. I want someone I can't ignore. I want someone who clings to my arm and demands my attention. I want someone pouts and sulks when I'm unavailable. I want someone who somehow ignores all conventional logic and puts their life in my hands. I've always wanted to meet someone like that, but I've never dared entertain the possibly of finding someone like that so strongly before. I want someone who wants- needs- to make me their whole world, because they are so deeply, madly, overwhelmingly in love with me. And I want to make them feel just as special, as if the Heavens glanced down and offered them favor. I want them to feel all the happiness in the world for giving me such a precious gift. You trust me, and that means everything in the world to me...
(blushes) Um...moving on...
While I'm in no position to relocate right now, I am definitely getting the hell outta here when the opportunity presents itself. I live in the single grayest place on the planet. I'm not joking! The locals joke about it being a pretty cold, gray place, but- possibly because of smog getting blown over from China- this place has gotten unbearable! I can't recall the last time I've seen stars in sky, and I think I can count the number of sunny days we've had this entire year so far on both hands!
So...yeah. More than willing to relocate should the opportunity present itself. I'm also A-okay with long distance relationships (although I ultimately want to have a relationship in real life, so don't get the wrong idea). I like meeting people from far off places, as a matter of fact! If I wanted someone local (and I live in a depressing meth county, so...no), why the frick would I be on the internet?
No poly-anything! Well, okay, might make an exception if you're polymorphic, 'cuse that sounds pretty cool, but I am strictly a one woman kind of guy. As tempting as it is to say otherwise, just one! I'm hopeless romantic and can't possibly comprehend sharing the love of my life. Then again...if my subby wanted a playmate...er...no, no. Nevermind.
I'm not normally too keen on hurting people I like...but damn it all, my sense of curiousity is morbid! Stuff like bloodplay and asphyxia honestly creeps me out...but I can't help but find it a little fasinating. I'm willing to try just about anything, but I'm going to take things carefully and if I'm even slightly worried about my partner's health, I'm quitting immediately! No arguements, or you'll get a spanking!
I should also say that while I'm open to disciplining my sub, I think I'd prefer to reward a good sub rather than punish a bad one. For any pain I apply, I want to follow it up with comfort.
I have a long list of fetishes (nerds, Goths, nearly every other female archetype imaginable), but have a huge cuteness fetish! Absolutely massive! Big ol' bonus points if you like snuggles, cuddles, glomps, and huggles! And if you says anything from LOLCats in a cute voice, giggling as you play with the edge of your frilly pink skirt, I will get down on my knee and freaking propose to you! (Wait, do I have a LOLCats fetish too, now? I HAZ FREAKEE SEX LIFE! NEXT I HAZ SEX WIT CHEEZBERGER! Oh, and more points if you're quirky little weirdo and like LOLCats.)
And on that note...hehe...LOVE catgirls! Love 'em! I really like the idea of petplay (another fetish I have: tummy rubs), but the idea of a cute girl in cat paw gloves and socks and wearing a car ear tiara cuddling up in my lap and taking a nap sends me into a happiness coma.
Okay...I have quite a bit of an eye for aesthetics, and...I...kinda like the idea of a sub I can dress up. My own fashion sense consists of t-shirts and black everything else (hey, black jeans are the very definition of sex), but I love the thought of dressing up my subby real pretty!
I'm a bit of a word Nazi, so when I hear "dating site", I naturally think of a site about dating. I very begrudgingly tell myself, though, that it's okay to look for friends on a dating site. Heck, I need friends! My social life is more like a social death! (HAR!)
Seriously, my life is full of solitude and I know it's not healthy. I like my solitude and all, but I really need friends. I crush on girls with lightspeed, but I know it's best for me that if there's potential for a serious relationship, I really need to be friends with them first before moving on. I know I'm going to say "Nuts to that!" more than a few timeS, but deep down, I do acknowledge someone needs to be my friend before moving upwards and onwards.
Um...you really should know I'm a very bishonen li'l fella...young looking, too! I can easily pass for probably 16! (I'm getting a bunch of creepy old dudes looking at me now, aren't I?) And I'm in touch with my feminine side far more than most straight guys (seriously, a test I took once said I was +50% female), so being a fem-pedo that's at least a little bi-curious will make the relationship a lot less awkward.
Okay, now for some of the more mundane facts about me. I love writing and have quite a bit of scattered experience with fanfics, scripts, and scenerio writing. I have a ton of projects going on but I have trouble getting anything done. I'm proud to say, though, that I have a fanfic series going that's meet with some great critical response and I officially have 60+ subscribers on my personal YouTube channel!
Let's see...what else...I play multiple female characters on my forums. And most of them are lesbians. Yeah, told ya there were sprinkles! Colorful sprinkles! Colorful sprinkles that like to make out with each other!
And now would probably be a good idea to point out that I am obsessed with lesbianism. Obsessed. I call myself a "male lesbian", my fixation runs so deep!
If you're straight...hope you don't mind if I sigh dreamily every time I see two girls kiss. If you're bi, then giggle and act like a total dork with me! Then we can write a lovely story about lesbians boobies.
I am very proud to say that I am a natural at psychology. Despite lacking anything that resembles a social life, I can easily read a person by just seeing a sentence or two. (wide smile) And yup, I'm saying I can profile people from just text on a screen! Cool, ain't I? If I wasn't a writer, I'd definitely love to be a criminal profiler or something.
I'm a bit of a lingistics nerd. Really like Latin, wanna learn Japanese someday, know bits and bobs of European languages, and I eagerly look up any words I don't know. I even did a German translation job once (see below).
I'm a big ol' fan of videogames and anime. Or I used to be. Anime's gotten too mainstream. Unless you have some cool import place or the like around (sadly, I don't), you don't get to see the cool stuff with boobies and ultra-violence. And games...the fans are brats and like I saw on IGN, a gaming depression is coming. The bar has been set way too high and unless you half-ass everything like Nippon Ichi, production costs are too high if you want to make something that looks modern. On the other hand, though, this is a golden opportunity for retro gaming and indie game makers like me!
Ever-so-slowly but ever-so-surely, I am working on making games. I work with RPG Maker 2000/2003, and despite the name, there's quite a bit you can do with the engines! Not only are there some really great games made with them, but I actually had the honor to work do some translation work of one such game. It's this German RPG Maker 2000 game called "Taut", and...oh man, it's cool! It's one of the most impressive games in the RPG Maker community! It has the graphics of a high end SNES game, but it's still manages to somehow be very damned scary. I very highly recommend it if you ever happen across it, especially if you're a fan of Silent Hill or David Lynch.
I most definitely want someone who's an active part of my life. Not that my life's all that active...but hey, like I said previously, I live in a very depressing place. I want someone to lovingly cling to my arm as we go to amusement parks, or anime/video game convensions (never been to any sort of convension, and desperately wanna go!), or just walk around and stalk the night. I also want someone to stay up with on quiet Friday nights and watch movies until one of us goes to sleep in the other's arms. (And if you really wanna win me over, fall asleep in my arms. Or at least pretend. That is so romantic and I've always wanted that to happen to me!)
If you're still reading, coolio! Apparently, the man with the LOLCats fetish, anger issues, and multiple female personalities didn't set off any alarms in your head!
I am absolutely, positively looking for an online relationship only! When I'm all moody and emotionally vulnerable, I'm sorta curious about cybering...but I mostly say that because that's part of the screening process. If I don't like you online, what makes you think I'm going to like you offline? Besides, there's a certain comfort level I'm going to need with a person before I put the rest of my life on hold and...do amoral things with them. If you're not willing to make a real commitment, then move right along.
-Tabris
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