| I'm young compared to most who practice and participate in the kink
lifestyle, but I'm determined to learn as much as I can and to do things
in a healthy, wholesome manner. I have learned a lot in the last 8
months or so about myself, what I want from my relationships, what BDSM
and Leather mean to me and about the type of people one can find who
make kink a part of their lives.
As for me, I am drawn to some of the more...intense parts of things. I
am, a lot of the time, a traditional Sadist (I'm having the most fun
when you're hating it) and sometimes I just enjoy the look in a person's
face when I make them squirm. BDSM is a small part sexual and a very
large part spiritual and personal for me; sex is sort of an
after-thought. I have gotten much more in tune with my inner workings as
I've learned about the lifestyle and what part I wish to play with it
and, in doing so, I have discovered a very interesting practice: energy
play.
I have grown quite fond of whips in the last few months. When I hold
one it feels like a part of me; like it's alive and I'm just using it
like a longer arm. I like them more than most other toys I've used
(knives and violet wands are up there, too) and spend a bit of my free
time just throwing them around.
The next step for me is to learn more and continue on my path through
Leather and make better sense of who I am and how to handle the
additional responsibilities that come with being the top part of a
relationship (and seeing how many of my friends are corruptible and can
be brought into our little slice of the "dark side"). It's been quite an
intense adventure/learning experience and I'm only just getting
started. Feel free to message me if you're interested in waxing
eloquent, talking philosophy or psycho-babbling.
What do I want in a relationship? Beyond the usual "honesty, love,
devotion, intelligence, etc." spiel, ultimately I want to find someone
who is willing to give me total control of their life. I want someone
who is independent and strong-willed, but submits to me and my desires.
I don't like to have to micromanage, but I reserve the right
to. My sense of D/s is military-like (me being the officer, you being
the enlisted).
Yes, I know that's a tall order for me given my age, but I'm
certainly willing to try things to see where they may go with anyone.
Time is something I definitely have and patience is one of my greatest
virtues.
-MrE
P.S. I'm not, and probably never will be, poly. I don't have any
desire to share that which is mine.
"Real learning requires the willingness to question the status quo" |
