Who am I?
While that is never a simple question for anyone, I find answering it severly complicated by the limits of our language and preconceived stereotypes and notions held in our culture. If you insist on the simple list of labels I am a somewhat
gender ambigious,
usualy submissive, polyamorous, pansexual,
solitary eclectic pagan
and
wife to a lesbian Mistress.
I am not a woman, but nor am I a man. I am not a transgender or a transexual. Physically I have all the functional male hardware, but at the same time when people come up behind me they frequently mistake me for a woman. Mistress has often commented that I move like a girl. None of this is intentional on my part, it is merely who I am.
Bisexual does not begin to cover it. Pansexual comes closer. But it is about so much more than sex. I can be sexual attracted to someone of any gender, and there are definately more than two. I also have the potential to be sensualy, emotionally, intellectually, spiritualy (in any combination) attracted to a member of any gender. This does not mean I find *everyone* attractive, just that when someone catches my attention the levels and ways I may bond with them depend on the whole package. The person's physical gender is simply one of many facets that I may or may not find appealing as part of the package, much the same as their weight and hair color.
My intellect is unique. I process the world in a way quite different from anyone I've ever known, male or female. I observe many things that everyone else passes by without noticing. My mind is highly creative and frankly, quite random. I make connections between things that no one else sees. I also often miss ones that everyone else takes for being obvious. It is most probable that I have some form of high functional autism. Dyslexia is unquestionaly part of the mix as well.
Given the materials, I can build a house from scratch. I have literaly raised a roof single handled. I also find shopping to be a fun pastime and when I get home I could make dinner and muffins from scratch. One apartment I lived in I build nearly all the furniture myself from salvaged lumber and also sewed the curtains.
I an usually mystified by how men behave in 'normal' relationships. Even how men handle friendships with other men rarely makes sense to me. I frequently take pride in things that most men would consider insulting. In general I find it easier to relate to women, and even back to when I was a child my best friends were always girls, or animals. If it is *just* for sex then I will more often opt for a man, but that is mostly because they are less likely to attach more meaning to it when I'm experiencing it simply for the physical pleasure. Yes, I am a slut, and embracing that feels wonderful! At the same time, I will protect my Mistress's house as loyaly and fiercely as any guard dog. I also count myself very fortunate that Mistress understands and does not discourage that aside from her my best friend is my previous girlfriend.
MistressYes claimed me as her pet last summer. I feel extremely lucky that she found me. Our relationship has evolved quickly and I have become her wife. I take care of the house, do most of the cooking, etc. "You're such a girl" has pretty much become a catch phrase. I don't try to behave fem it's just my natural patterns.
I make my living as a general handyman. I have over 25 years experience and can fix most anything in a house. I also have some experience with designing and building dungeon equipment. Available for hire in central NY for home repair jobs of any size.
I am not actively seeking anyone, but am open to friends and possible playmates. All will be with Mistress's full knowledge and approval but she does encourage me to explore all of my fantasies. She loves to watch me with another man but this does *not* mean we're looking for a threesome (well, possibly two other men to use me while she watches).
Mistress and I both expect to become a poly household at some point. We're not actively looking for people for it, but when we meet someone we are both compatible with the framework has already been done to include additional partners in our relationship.
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