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11/13/2008 4:47:27 PM: 
Ok, I've found a new hobbie, which i'm good at.Well I think I am. It's photo 'art'. Well...Design-thing. I been creating my own little 'fantasy' world, considering I can't seem to find once, so I put all my imagination in to doing this new thing.Before you ask no it's not photo shop, and it's not paint shop (suprise, suprise!) It's a range of paint, 'dream light' and a total mix with fonts. I'm really getting in to this, it's even stolen my attention away from Collarme! :DAnyway, no point me talking about all this and not showing you, but all my work is at www.myspace.com/xxxdevilsdaughtrxxx Or the right albun URL is; http://viewmorepics.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewPicture&friendID=58530683&albumId=2561599 :D*******Oh, a slight little secret! The majority of them are me posing naked, BUT,but, but! I have modesty in them. I love'em! And you can't see anything....You'd want to see either. :D And still remain yummy. *******Anyway, yeah. Back on to create another one.. These addicting. >.> 
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11/4/2008 3:43:18 PM: 
I was just thinking (I tend to think
too much, I gathered. :P ), there is not enough magic or imagination
left in the world. Maybe I'm a dreamer, and long for the impossible,
but it just seems every ounce of fantasy has been taken out of the
world and life we live in. So much so that old books have been
brought to life via cinema or DVD-Modernization.I was having a
discussion with a lovely male ( :D) about it yesterday or today,
can't remember which, there is nothing left in this world, so it
seems, apart from the imagination of children. And even then, it's
corrupt with war and violence. *Sigh*Don't get me wrong, I'm a
lass and I LOVE to shop until I have about two pence left, or go out
and have a drink but in my heart, I think, I long for passion,
fantasy, a hero (which I doubt I'll find). The medieval Gothic
male; Evilly seductive, cunning,handsome and -My- 'Romeo'.I
understand we live an ever-changing world. A world where technology
is now -needed- and not -wanted-.As humans, I guess we strive for
change, we couldn't live without evolution. Correcting our mistakes
etc etc.To me it's like we live a pointless existence of nothing;
dead end jobs. Get up, go to work, have the occasional comfort or
enjoyment, then go to sleep again and follow the same cycle.I
think the most excitement I can think of in a job would be to become
an anthropologist or an archaeologist. Discover new things, new
creatures (well not exactly 'new').Either that or create my own
world via literature.Heh.. I don't know. Maybe I'm alone with my
thoughts or just too passionate for something that wont exactly
happen.

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11/1/2008 12:15:49 PM: I was thinking, when I was in the bath and idle unto my lonely thoughts how fast time goes. I didn't realise it when I was younger and people use to say 'Time flies!' or 'You'll miss high school' and all that cliche stuff. But I actually have come to realise how much I miss my old high school. It's like... Hm, I was in primary school yesterday, but the thought of it is so vivid. Same with high school, it feels like i've just got a day off, but when I try to remember how it was, it was like it never happened at all. I know i'm 18 and young but I feel time is going way too fast. In under 10 months I will be 19. All that was has completely gone. I just about *hate* growing up. I miss alot of things now that I thought I would never miss. For example my pappa lecturing me on how I shouldn't straighten my hair, or how my teachers would repeat themselves 'you're 16! Act it!' or ' You should have done your homework!'. -Sighs.- Now my pappa doesn't even lecture me at all, it's just 'Well you're 18 you can make your own choices and decissions' and teachers? Pfsh! I have non!It's a slight irony in it's own way. We all can't wait to grow up, have our own independence and life, but when the time comes we just don't want to grow up or move on. I'm still not ready to grow up, not even ready to be 18! It's like a big chunk of my life has gone missing and i've no clue where it's gone. :/All my friends from Primary or from secondary have their own lives now, in uni got a job or a child and i'm just....Here.It just strikes me odd! Odd that I can't ring up my friend and ask her to come have a party down the field and get smashed because she has a child.Odd that I don't call for my friends in the morning and walk with them to school.Odd that I haven't got detention, or homework. Odd I don't have to study in general!I really just don't know what to do with myself. It's like I have the time, but as soon as I have it, it's gone again. :(

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11/1/2008 12:15:33 PM: I was thinking, when I was in the bath and idle unto my lonely thoughts how fast time goes. I didn't realise it when I was younger and people use to say 'Time flies!' or 'You'll miss high school' and all that cliche stuff. But I actually have come to realise how much I miss my old high school. It's like... Hm, I was in primary school yesterday, but the thought of it is so vivid. Same with high school, it feels like i've just got a day off, but when I try to remember how it was, it was like it never happened at all. I know i'm 18 and young but I feel time is going way too fast. In under 10 months I will be 19. All that was has completely gone. I just about *hate* growing up. I miss alot of things now that I thought I would never miss. For example my pappa lecturing me on how I shouldn't straighten my hair, or how my teachers would repeat themselves 'you're 16! Act it!' or ' You should have done your homework!'. -Sighs.- Now my pappa doesn't even lecture me at all, it's just 'Well you're 18 you can make your own choices and decissions' and teachers? Pfsh! I have non!It's a slight irony in it's own way. We all can't wait to grow up, have our own independence and life, but when the time comes we just don't want to grow up or move on. I'm still not ready to grow up, not even ready to be 18! It's like a big chunk of my life has gone missing and i've no clue where it's gone. :/All my friends from Primary or from secondary have their own lives now, in uni got a job or a child and i'm just....Here.It just strikes me odd! Odd that I can't ring up my friend and ask her to come have a party down the field and get smashed because she has a child.Odd that I don't call for my friends in the morning and walk with them to school.Odd that I haven't got detention, or homework. Odd I don't have to study in general!I really just don't know what to do with myself. It's like I have the time, but as soon as I have it, it's gone again. :(

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10/31/2008 9:25:45 AM: Tomorrow i'll probably be dropping out of uni, and re-applying next year for the course I want to take. So it came to my attention that i'll have  extra time to kill.Maybe get a part-time job save up and travel for a bit, or take a course in something to gain extra points to go back to uni and take journalism or Media.Hm, I haven't decided yet, though my pappa is pretty angry with me for dropping out. :/Anyway, I think I should make the most of this year I have off and have some proper 'fun'. Catch up on the whole 'teenage'-thing i've missed out on. ^______^Actually...Hm, come to think of it... I might just travel about the UK. Yup, i'll do that I think! ^___^ :D