Submissive...Real...Passionate...Caring...Loving..

11/14/2008 2:21:48 PM: I am going to start sewing the word "Mistress" on a plastic canvas... and sell them for $25.00 each for those that might be interested in purchasing one from me.  I will start my first one tomorrow and when I finish with it, I will post a picture for you to see. Let me know if you would possibly be interested in purchasing one as a gift to give to your Mistress... or.. if you are a Mistress.. and just like the idea.. and would like one to hang up in your dungeon, or wall... 
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11/10/2008 11:54:37 AM: So I was planning on going to Az to attend SWLC, but I won't be able to make it.  I was looking forward to seeing all my real time friends from the lifestyle... and meeting new friends that I've never met before from AOL, but I won't be able to make it.  I will make plans to attend in 2010.  I really hope to make it then.  If you have plans on going.. I hope you have a great time.  You'll be around a lot of good people!
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10/25/2008 5:40:42 PM: tell me i'm yours... tell me what you will do to me.. tell me how erotic my submission will be... tell me how erotic your dominance will be... 
 
show me i'm yours... show me by taking me from behind.. show me by pushing me on the bed onto my knees... show me by grabbing me by the hair and looking into my eyes...
 
take it... take it and make it yours... take it with all the strength you have within you... take my submission... take my hunger... take the control... make me give it to you...
 
watch my struggle... watch my resistance... watch as i fight you... watch as i struggle to free myself from your grip... watch my face... my expressions... the fight and struggle within my eyes... watch as i ache deep inside...
 
you'll see.. once your hands touch my body... once you put your hands all over my body... i will be free... i will feel you deep inside... you will crawl into my skin... you'll make me give it up to you... you'll see.. you'll see the struggle free itself from my body...
 
it's true.. it's genuine.. it's real.. it's my submission.. yet it's your dominance i ache for...
 
i want to free myself in you..
 
i want to taste you..
 
i want to feel you..
 
i want for you to grab me and free me..
 
all i want to do is give it to you.. i want to give up the struggle and free myself..
 
show me.. take me.. push me up against the wall.. make me look into your eyes.. make me whisper softly into your ear.. make me confess.. make me tell you how i want for you to take me.. make me tell you how i want to be yours.. how i want to be owned by you.. how i want to be loved by you.. how i want to be your property.. make me.. because you know i will struggle to tell you on my own.. you know i will struggle to give that to you.. and you need to take it from me..
 
reach down.. and take the hardest trigger from me.. touch me right there.. on my clit.. touch me right there.. and watch me melt into you.. watch.. as the trigger sends me over.. watch as that trigger takes me flying..
 
stand there and look into my eyes.. make me watch that smile come over your face.. watch.. as i struggle to free my wrists from your grip.. oh no..you're not going to let go.. you will let me struggle.. you will let me fight.. but you will not let go.. you will not free me..
 
slowly.. harshly.. you will strip me out of my clothes.. naked i'll be before you.. your hands will explore my body.. and touch me everywhere.. you'll touch every part of my body.. every part of my body, but my clit.. you know that makes me ache.. you know that takes me over the edge.. but you deny me.. you deny me that.. you deny the pleasure i get from your fingers touching my clit.. you deny me.. over and over again..
 
your fingers pinch at my nipples.. your teeth sink into my neck.. and bite me.. sending me further.. sending me deeper.. it's a fight.. it's a struggle.. but it's a deep fucking pleasure.. moaning.. screaming softly.. moaning.. again, and again.. purring.. purring like a lil kitten.. moaning.. 
 
the slut in me comes out.. my body dances against yours.. your hands freely exploring.. touching.. making me yours.. 
 
you finish what you have taken from me.. with the ultimate mind fuck.. leaning into my ear and whispering harshly into my ear.. 
 
slut..
 
you are denied.. 
 
and you leave me there standing against that wall... aching to be taken... 
 
~ denied... ~
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10/25/2008 4:41:38 PM: I need to write a new fantasy... it's been lurking about in my head for a while... it's time to put it down on paper...I just might post it here if you're so lucky..<eg>
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10/24/2008 3:04:10 PM: I'm still thinking about this past weekend.  I'm thinking of how much fun I had... and how depressing things have been lately... and I'm still thinking about how much fun I had, and wished I had more time away in Az.  I wish we could've spent a couple of days there.  I didn't do anything but laugh and truly have fun.  I didn't realize how much I truly missed having a Mistress.  I miss having someone to be with, someone to be around... I miss the connection... I miss the dance... the exchange.  I didn't realize how much I missed it until we met up with Ms T and S this weekend.  I thought I got over trying to find someone for me.  I guess I haven't.. because I started to feel depressed.  Ms T didn't realize how good it made me feel when she was stroking my hair... and just let me lay there in my bed beside her... while she sat there and stroked my hair.  I almost wanted to cry actually.  I wanted to let go and let the tears flow, but we were having such a good time... I didn't want to be the depressing one at the party in the our room. I miss feeling that wonderful, gentle touch.  I miss how wonderful it makes me feel... to feel soft gentle caresses.  I miss it all.  <sad smile>