I'm a smart, single, fiercely independent but deeply submissive woman desiring a monogamous LTR, with an intelligent, strong, fit, confident dominant man between 35-50. I'm a woman of varied contradictions and contrary qualities, many of which I can't explain or resolve.
Outwardly, I am highly intelligent, educated, confident, accomplished and the consumate over achiever. I don't smoke, drink or do drugs, I eat healthy and exercise daily and generally work hard to look and feel young. I have a strong personality and an equally strong will, but I am never rude or obnoxious. I was raised in the fashion of a southern lady, kind and sincere with impeccable manners. Although I get along well with all kinds of people, my tastes are very discriminating of those I let into my inner circle and most of the time I prefer the company of my dogs to that of the human sort. My beginnings were rather humble and I can honestly say that many of my adventures and successes can be equally attributed to a Forrest Gump kind of naivete as to personal ambition and drive. Humility and a little self-deprecation keeps me grounded. I tend to see the world as a big playground and often feel restless and unsettled, vacillating between my love of nature and the outdoors, but also longing for the excitement and opportunity of the big city. I'm not sure I could ever choose permanently between the two.
In my personal life, I have far less confidence and achievement when it comes to relationships. I've been very independent my whole adult life but only recently come to realize that my personality and how I relate to a male partner is very submissive. The ideal partner for me is worthy of my respect and trust, is extremely intelligent, well read, demanding, confident bordering on arrogant, possesses a will and resolve stronger than my own, completely in control and able to invoke a healthy amount of fear to keep it, unapologetic about his own needs and desires but capable of compassion and kindness. This man should be fit and athletic, possess a naturally dominant personality and nature, and have control of all aspects of his life - career, health, finances, and relationships. He should also be patient and a good teacher. I am not interested in someone who 'role plays' the dominant for the purpose of kinky sex. For me this is more about how I relate to a man and not about what kind of sex I have. Once the dynamics of the relationship- compatibility, respect, trust - are established, whatever kind of sex he desires will follow.
I'm also an atheist and secular humanist and don't wish to get involved with someone who has deep religious convictions.
