~Owned by Master xBullx~
I am here only for interaction on the Gorean forum and to stay in touch with friends.
With his collar and thankfully his brand now firmly in place, Master thought it was time for a new profile. I kept some of the old, and there is some new, as usual I kept one thing consistence and that is the length…
Master is a man that contemplates and applies the Gorean Philosophies to his daily affairs. He is the most wonderful, amazing Man that I’ve met in my life. I cannot begin to describe my love or devotion for him.
He is my world, my breath of air, my whole life.
Master has for a Free Companion (His Wife) the most wonderful woman you can imagine (MisssNatalie on this site). A girl couldn’t dream of having a better Mistress than her. The support and guidance that I have found in her are priceless. The example she sets for me by how she daily handles her affairs is unsurpassed by any other woman I’ve ever met; just like with Master, there is not one detail that passes her by.
I've met Master here on CM on the Gorean board. I've visited him and Mistress a couple of times this year. At the moment I'm in Belgium working on getting the papers for my visa in order. It's been a long troublesome road, but it looks like I'll finally be able to move permanently later this summer. It is very important to Master that we do this all legal and proper, so it has been a very time consuming and trying process.
Master and Mistress keep me as their slave. Not their friend, not their lover, not their partner, simply as their slave. There is very little kink involved the traditional sense within our relationship. My role is geared much more toward a domestic and general service role then towards the kink or s/m type of service.
My duties vary from common household chores, to keeping them both company, entertaining them, sexual service, to everything and anything in between. It is very much a no-limits slavery, in the sense that as long as I am in Master's collar, I do not have the right to say 'no' to anything. In our modern day society nobody of course can stop me from leaving, so within the slavery I am kept, saying 'no' equals packing my bags and leaving, which is as close as anybody can ever get to being a voluntary no-limits slave, at least in my opinion.
I’m also a firm believer in the idea that my submission is NOT a gift.
It is not something that I, out of my own choice bestow upon Master. I never made a promise to be his or to obey him in all things. Instead, he compels my submission from me simply by being the man that he is.
Because of that, I begged him to keep me. For me personally, there is a very fundamental difference between this and viewing submission as a gift. I begged him to keep me AFTER he had already taken control over me and I never 'allowed' him to take control over me, he took that himself.
I'm not suggesting that one way of viewing it is better then the other, just that this is how it works for me. I'm sure there are other ways in which it works best for other people.
Because my submission is not a gift, Master's control over me also isn't a passive act. He doesn't sit around waiting for me to submit to him, he takes an active role towards mastering me. To have my obedience, he needs to inspire it, to compel it from me. He cannot use the 'gift' of my submission as a method of making me feel guilty because that gift was never made.
I love him, I need him, I trust him, I need to be in his life. But he only allows me to be in his life on his terms; therefore I have no choice but to obey him; not if I want, if I need to be his.
Because he actively masters me, he can be quite cruel and strict with me at times. He never allows me to forget my place, never allows me to forget that I'm in his life only on his terms, never allows me to forget that I'm nothing but a slave.
Sometimes the lessons are very hard to take, but on a whole they have made me a stronger, happier and better person and have created a bond with him that is deeper then anything I could have ever imagined.
He knows me like nobody has ever known me before; and I trust him with my life.
Well, I’ve again managed to ramble on quite a bit. Those of you who that know me a little know that this is a habit. For those that might be interested, I keep a blog at http://ishyb.blogspot.com/2008/09/everybody-wants-to-be-alpha.html feel free to read it if you like.
i wish you well
ishy
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