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11/18/2007 3:03:03 AM |
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An excerpt from a card He sent me:'you and I are connected in a way that goes beyond romance, beyond friendship, beyond what we've ever had before. It defies time, distance, and changes in ourselves and in our lives, and it has defied every explaination except one-When i'm with You it's like a tiny part of the universe shifts into the place it's supposed to be, and all is right with the world.'An excerpt from a card He sent me:'you and I are connected in a way that goes beyond romance,
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9/15/2007 1:52:41 AM |
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He said it today 'Enrich and Complete' the meaning behind our relationship. i know that He enriches my life and provides a feeling of completeness that can only become more as we move toward our shared goals. My ideal Master started out as just that... an ideal. Never in my wildest dreams did i think that Ideal would be fully embodied in InkedMaster. i am blessed.He said it today 'Enrich and Complete' the meaning behind our relationship. i know that
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5/17/2007 12:08:44 AM |
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My ideal Master? He should be as opposite from female as He can be. A big hairy beast of a Man, who knows the value of a good fart and feels He has the right to large chucks of red meat. The ideal Master knows that a meal that takes hours to prepare will always be more satisfying than one heated in the microwave and knows that a relationship molded, constructed and conditioned over time will be more satisfying that instant collaring. He is patient. He pushes limits. He is always mindful that trust is earned. He makes His slave perform things she may not like but for His pleasure not for her degradation. He knows this will eventually build her self esteem even if she doesn't know that at the time. He knows that praise and reward motivates and that punishment demotivates and uses one to encourage a behavior and the other to discourage a behavior. He has the ability to laugh and actually be silly at times. He laughs often and out loud. He can laugh at Himself. His slave may have talents, experiences, or capabilities that exceed His and He uses to His advantage rather than be jealous or belittle them. He knows how to fix things or build things like cars or a backyard deck. He knows how to use a lawnmower. He is happy with women doing women's work and men doing men's work and isn't ashamed to be 'traditional' in that regard. He would rather have his woman at home. He honestly believes females are created for His delight and that they are not all blood-sucking bitches. He sometimes doesn't know which He loves more, His woman or His Harley and He treats each with equal use and care. My ideal Master would be handsome but not necessarily handsome in the TV or movies kind of way, His good looks come mainly in His self-confidence. He sees me as more beautiful than i see myself. He doesn't run away from difficulty. His property may need fixing from time to time. He doesn't tow His car to the junk yard for throwing a rod and He doesn't uncollar His slave because she pitches a fit. When He says 'I love you.' it refers to a deep emotion not a whim or a throw-away phrase and there are no conditions on His love, it is something His slave can rely upon, His love is her rock, her anchor. He is able to accept her love as something He needs, it refreshes and renews Him and He relies upon it. My ideal Master? He should be as opposite from female as He can be. A big hairy beast of a Man
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5/2/2007 1:03:36 AM |
In my opinion, looking through rose-colored glasses is a distorted view but looking through mud-splattered glasses totally obscures the veiw. Life is too short to focus on what is wrong, bad and evil. There's plenty of that and easy to find. More precious is to seek out the joy and beauty.
i worked with the US Geological Survey long ago when they were in charge of minerals management and part of my job was in computer modelling where we calculated dirt to coal ratios for royalty payments on coal mines operating on Federal land. There's more dirt than coal. No one was looking for the dirt, everyone already knew there was going to be dirt, the coal was the important part and the useful mineral. So, in life, the ugly parts are a given, they are going to be there. We should be mining for joy.In my opinion, looking through rose-colored glasses is a distorted view but looking through mu
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3/16/2007 10:53:56 PM |
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i can see my tendancy to make decisions based on fear, primarily the fear of the unknown. But i was thinking that if i do this i am actually submitting to fear and i need to submit to Power. It's Power that attracts me and to which i submit and the only thing worthy of submission is Power.i can see my tendancy to make decisions based on fear, primarily the fear of the unknown. But
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11/16/2006 11:23:16 PM |
Driving through Wyoming i saw a sign pointing to a side road off the highway. On impluse i turned and found a 'town' that boasted a population less than 20 souls. But there was a two-story building calling itself a hotel and convenience store. i went in and found an establishment that had probably the oldest, hand-carved, huge and ornate cherry-wood bar. The owner and his wife were retired school teachers and had restored the building in the middle of nowhere as a hobby. What little income paid the taxes and the light bill. The visit was fascinating and enjoyable.
Taking a turn off the highway, without pre-set destination, added something of real value to the journey.Driving through Wyoming i saw a sign pointing to a side road off the highway. On impluse i tu
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11/3/2006 10:24:52 PM |
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Today i was thinking about hope. There are rainy days like today when i think seriously about giving up. But Hope is the seasoning to life, like seasoning for food, too much makes the dish bitter and inedible. Too much Hope makes life bitter because it leads to countless disappointments. No Hope, like seasonings, makes life bland. So here i am, with a sprinkle of Hope that i may one day find my life's Master.Today i was thinking about hope. There are rainy days like today when i think seriously about
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10/18/2006 2:51:51 AM |
Today i was thinking about worthiness. How presenting myself to a Master gives me feelings of worthiness.
Am i worthy without a Master? Of course i am, but that relationship is the proof. To look at Master and know i am here because i am worthy. i have to be worthy first, Master doesn't make me worthy, but manifests that worth.
i don't seek a Master because i think i'm broken and need Someone to fix me. i seek a Master because i am whole and have much to offer. Master doesn't need to 'fix' me, Master completes me.
Someone who renews my faith in myself through my faith in Him.
Today i was thinking about worthiness. How presenting myself to a Master gives me feelings of
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10/10/2006 12:39:44 AM |
Today i was thinking about how my submission brings me
in touch with the feminine. The feminine is so
powerful. Did You know that women have more genes
than men? That women's brains have more switches
between right and left hemisphere than men? The
feminine is so powerful that it has been surpressed by
countless cultures and taboos. The feminine needs to
be controlled rather than surpressed. The feminine
needs to be used rather than locked away. It takes
the masculine to do that. i wonder if that is what a
Master feels? To be able to control and direct the
feminine must be a heady experience. i know that
being able to let go completely under the care and
direction of a trusted Master would allow me to fully
experience all that i am.
To be the waterfall that is harnessed for electricity,
to be the full orchrestra under the direction of the
maestro, to be all that i am without fear.Today i was thinking about how my submission brings me
in touch with the feminine. The femin
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7/19/2006 4:39:29 AM |
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'A person has never been honored for what they recieved; Honor is the reward for what a person gives.''A person has never been honored for what they recieved; Honor is the reward for what a person
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