| Wow, its been over a year since my last update. And tons of things have changed since then. I moved to Florida and lived there for 8 months before having to come back up to Seattle to find work. I will be back in Florida for sure. But in the mean time I've been learning more about myself and what I want.
I have a Daddy, but I've become more interested in finding a Mommy. I want to experience the nurturing aspect from a female. To experience the cuddles and care from a female aspect. One thing I'm very interested in trying is breastfeeding, not necessarily from a lactating female but just as a form of bonding.
I would like her to either be located in Seattle or Orlando Florida. If in Florida I would like her to be willing to meet with my Daddy who is still down there to see if he thinks she'll be a good match.
Update: Nov 22nd 2010:
Am I the right woman for you? In a word, No.
Why? Because I don't feel I've earned the title of woman, just because your body bleeds once a month, that doesn't make you a woman.
I am an Inner kid, basically someone who's soul is still childlike, trapped if you will in stasis, while their body may have grown up. The oldest I ever feel or act is 12, the youngest is 2 but on a normal day I feel around 7 when I'm by myself.
I am afraid of the dark, of mirrors, of strangers and of children older than 10.
I am a nonsexual little, and asexual 90% of the other time. I do have sexual urges but only with the right people and under the right circumstances. Those will be discussed if things go that far.
In a play partner, I'm looking for either a local Mommy or Daddy who understands nonsexual regressive AB play, that is what I'm looking for the most, someone I can explore that side of me with, I haven't had any experience outside of online with my AB side. A bonus would be someone who also has experience with knife play and light breath play (I prefer having the artery in the neck cut off versus my windpipe) I do have experience with other forms of BDSM play but those are my top two favorite outside of age play. If you have a LTR with someone else, that's all well and good. I just ask that they know about me and approve and that it's not hidden. I would like to be able to meet preferably on weekends at least once a month, hopefully overnight but if not that's acceptable.
In a relationship partner, I am looking for a local Daddy, a Mommy isn't out of the equation for a LTR but I've never had a Mommy so we would have to go slow. I would hope they would have the same qualities as someone that would be a play partner with the exception that I am not comfortable with long term poly relationships. I've tried them before and they just don't work, I don't share well. Occasional play partners would be negotiable. I hope to have children of my own someday, and I want someone who is head over heels in love with me, who gets that sappy grin on his face when he sees me or talks about me. I want someone who wants to travel the world when time and funds allow and who encourages me with school. I want someone who takes control and guides with a firm loving hand. I am a bit of a loving brat, I will push buttons just because I can but I will not purposely step over boundaries.
The youngest side of me is about... 2 I guess. I haven't really explored that side because it's a new development, she likes soft cuddly warm things, blankeys, shirts that are super soft and stuffies that are cuddly. Cuddles and cartoons are wonderful.
The little, the main one is 7. She's outgoing, easily exciteable and loves to laugh, play and giggle. Tickles and kisses on the forehead are the best in her eyes. She loves to color and dress up, pink is her favorite color (gross!)
The oldest is 13, she's the highly sexual side of me as well as the biggest brat. She loves to read, she devours books. She listens to Hollywood Undead and music like that.
My hobbies are photography, reading, art, movies. I do enjoy the zoo and pet stores and build a bear and the disney store are addictions. I'm also in the process of learning japanese.
Some short term goals I have are, to get my own car, find my own apartment after I get a car, go back to school, I'm thinking of becoming a teacher. Next summer I have a trip planned to OK in August and In two years I'd like to go visit Japan.
Update: Sept 20th 2010: Taking a Break from all this, not sure I can find what I'm looking for.
I'm a 26 year old "babygirl" I have a fairly good idea of what I'm looking for but when I write it out it seems so... disorganized lol. I'm not looking for a Master or a "Sir", I'm looking for someone who can be both Dom and "Daddy" and knows the difference and is willing to learn when each is needed or desired and I promise to try to learn to tell the difference when "babygirl" or the adult side is needed.
*This is purposely selfish... I want a "Daddy" who is willing to put me first, my safety and happiness above all else. If I feel as though he puts me first, I will put him first.*
Nonsexually and non BDSM I enjoy AB activities on a limited basis; when in that state of mind I tend to be around "3". I also enjoy reading and being read to and attemping to draw and write. I also enjoy movies and music. I also enjoy swimming and light, easy hiking. Also the beach and taking walks. I would love to be able to go to plays downtown or maybe one year to go see the Nutcracker. I also like the zoo and different museums. Even without being in AB mode I tend to be non sexual especially if Im feeling in "babygirl" mode. But I do enjoy sex.
Sexually and BDSM wise, I enjoy such things as knife play.. I've mostly just done light cuttings... usually just surface ones that just weep if they bleed at all. I also enjoy floggings, quirts, canes done a specific way, the whartenburg wheel. I am not bisexual, and I am not poly. If there was the "right" girl I might try it, but its not something I'm seeking out nor is it something that I will force myself to try if it doesn't feel right. I've tried the poly lifestyle, it's not for me. I need too much one on one time at this time in my life. Oral sex.. giving to me is a huge plus, as is "messy" sex or sex while I'm on my cycle. I do enjoy performing oral sex on a man... but I don't enjoy cum in my mouth and definately don't swallow, I have reasons for this please ask.
I've been told that I'm very much a "little girl" all the time. I can be "big" when it comes to work or something serious. But I do tend to react to things on an "emotionally immature" angle. Especially if I'm overtired or stressed or overly excited.
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