| *Take a minute to read my journal too*
I appear to be a very good girl to most people. I have a dark and nasty side as well. While I love real time scening, the idea of online scening on cam for a stranger is intoxicating as well. I want to live out the fantasy of becoming the ultimate nasty dirty little cam slut for my owner. Notice I said owner and not dominate or master. I want to be owned like a dog or a piece of property. I want to schedule my life around my cam sessions with this owner. I live alone so all sorts of sadistic things are possible. Perhaps you will keep me naked and on cam for hours punishing myself. Perhaps you will order me to perform for others on cam. I will be your toy, your whore, your slut, slave, cumslave, fuck meat. Constantly punishing me for the smallest of infractions. Perhaps I forgot to call you Sir or I refered to myself as something other than whore c*nt and I am ordered to place clamps on my nipples and beat my c*nt with a hairbrush for 10 long agonizing minutes. Imagine what the punishment would be for bigger infractions such as orgasming without permission (orgasms would be very rare treats) or failing to obey an order. A life of pain, humiliation and servitude is the life i am destined to live. Can it be done to some degree online? you tell me.
I am trying to wrap my mind around an idea and how to make it work perhaps you can help. A car or a dog doesnt choose it's owner right? I'm trying to figure out a way to make my slavery more realistic in that I don't directly choose my owner. Is it possible to live out this fantasy and still be safe? I think online it just might be. I would love to hear your ideas on this as well as ideas on how you would make my life painful and humiliating if you were in fact my owner and I were your online fuck toy. |
