|
Every experience is a learning a curve and I am still learning a lot about myself and my place within this lifestyle. If we have to use labels then I do regard myself as a slave within this lifestyle. I enjoy and need structure, routine and rules to follow on a daily basis more than the physical ‘play’, although that is still always fun :-) but just a small part of what all this means to me.
I do not look to be micro-managed though and I would not put myself down as a masochist. I am a strong minded and, oh yes! can be a very opinionated, feisty girl, who can occasionally speak without thinking lol.
I need to grow and learn more through my future Master, who I will hopefully have a very long future with, in the safety and security of his arms, guiding and protecting me on the right path to becoming the best I can be for him.
It is also important to me that we can connect and have that chemistry/spark there just as well in vanilla as we do in M/s and can relax and enjoy ourselves and have fun, without all the pressures and expectations that this lifestyle can put on us.
I am looking for the relationship to progress as naturally as it can, as we enjoy taking the time to get to know each other, and therefore would prefer someone more local to me where we can have that chance to build the relationship up at a pace that works and we can have the spontaneity to be together as and when we both want, eventually leading to a more serious long term commitment. I am not closed off to distance, but after experience of that being a downfall and the pressures it puts on both I would still be looking for someone not too far, if possible.
I understand that trying to find the right balance between M/s and nilla life can be rocky and there will be ups and downs but with give and take from both sides, listening, understanding, learning from each other we shall find our way together, if we are right for each other and both want it together....and in general having lots of fun exploring every aspect of each other as we can.
I am also happy to be here to make and keep in touch with friends as they are always important to be there for each other to laugh, cry, scream or just bounce thoughts off each other and we all need someone to turn to when things might be getting us down and also someone to talk to when things are on a high...
 desire x
|
