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Now happily owned by CockneyAndy.
Major change in profile now done. The woman that was here no longer exists. I’ve been given the total freedom to not only find myself, but to accept and be happy with who I really am. Yes it’s a paradox, by accepting Andy as my Master, I’ve been given total freedom, freedom to be myself at last.... and I quite like the person I have found. *smiles*
This does not mean I’m moving again, vanishing off the face of the earth or have died. I am still allowed to chat and drive you all up the wall. LOL
So what happened I hear you ask? What cataclysmic event caused me to look at myself and realise that I wasn’t the person described in my old profile text? It is simple really, I met a man who saw past the façade to the true woman underneath. Someone who saw the value of that person and is determined that she will realise the same and finally be free. Someone with the patience to take me by the hand and lead me into my new life.
But to all that know me and I class as friends I say this…….. if you think the scatty, bratty lunatic, prone to blonde moments at the drop of a hat has died and gone to Valhalla, let me tell you now not to worry.
Even Andy with all his Godlike abilities, (I had to put that bit in – He is standing behind me with a crop * grin *) can’t perform miracles. (well, not outside the bedroom anyway…..He is still behind me LOL).
I am still the same feisty, bratty, opinionated and irreverent person. That much of the old me remains, wonderfully that is also at Andy’s insistence. He knows that is my spirit and doesn’t want that quelled….. far from it!
TPE means different things to different people, to Andy and I it means I defer to him in all things. Not for him to micromanage my life. But for me to enjoy the wonderful security of knowing that in everything I now do he is there. Judgement no longer a part of my life, I am allowed to be human and fail occasionally, safe in the knowledge that he will pick me up and with patience explain where I have gone wrong. It also means that although he holds ultimate authority I must take responsibility.
I am free to meet new friends, chat and enjoy life. Yahknow…. Continue to drive you all mad! LOL. I am even allowed to maybe play with selected people, but that selection will be done by Andy. If you haven’t the courtesy, or the balls to talk to him then there is not a cat in hells chance of you getting to first base! On here his nick is CockneyAndy, he doesn’t bite, (well not until he gets to know you * grin *).
So this new me is very much a work in progress, already some taboos and limits have gone by the wayside – already I am seeing the light at what has been a very long and dark tunnel. All I can say is…….
WATCH THIS SPACE!
Chat thing on here doesnt work on my comp, so please dont ask.
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