*Off the Market*Sorry folks!Capricious, intellig

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SilkFreudianSlip

Female Switch, 23, Jacksonville, Florida

*Off the Market*Sorry folks!Capricious, intelligent, and artistic. All are words that I can freely use to describe myself though I would much prefer to simply let you watch and come to that conclusion yourself. My personality runs the gamut from chatty and social to quiet and observant, aggressive to passive, and kind to cruel. One thing that stays constant however, is my honesty, sincerity in action, and my big empathetic heart.As to being a submissive, be aware that right now, I am not looking to relocate nor am I looking for an immediate master or immediate anything either. I am looking to learn though if I happen across a dominant that I enjoy and care about, I'd be more inclined to something a little more long-term.As to that dominant side, I'm not looking to relocate or an immediate sub or slave. Work-wise, I am an accomplished professional in the security industry aspiring to the next tier of management. I take my work seriously as it is a little more involved than traditional security what with the daily mountain of paperwork and the like. Again, my tastes and curiosities are broad but the more extreme lines will not be crossed. For me, seduction starts in the mind and seduction is in the details. I'm quite flexible and believe in truthfulness in my dealings. I will not tolerate being pressured, period. I find that I enjoy novel things and enjoy the challenge of rising to the occasion, however that occasion may play out. My interests are wide and varied. I enjoy many many things like visiting museums, to rodeos, to poetry readings, to Civil War reenactments, you name it. If it sounds interesting, I'll usually give it a shot. I love role-playing as a hobby ((text-based and LARPs)), as well as writing, drawing, reading ((picking my way through Clan Novel: Setite)), and looking for new music. *Another note! I am very interested in learning how to make fetishwear and different types of fetishwear. My creative streak demands a foray into design and construction of pieces so if you are a designer or artist, do drop me line please! I'm most eager to learn. It's been awhile since I sat down and sewed anything but the last thing I did make was a Prom dress for a friend. Not overly complicated but simple, with beaded trim on a black satin dress with a lace-up back. Took a long damn time to get the strings to turn out right but it was worth it.**Notes*While I enjoy receiving mail from various folks, be advised that there are some types of people I have no interest in entering a relationship with or getting involved with.1. If you are married, affianced, or dating another person. To me, despite what the divorce rate in this country is, marriage is a sacred bond between man and woman, woman and woman, man and man, or however your pairing or trio etc pans out. I don't mind talking with married folks but that is a limit.2. If you are twice my age or old enough to be my father. I know they say that age is just a number but it's more to do with my comfort level. Again, I do not mind talking. 3. I admit it! I'm a grammar Nazi. When I compose a message to anyone, I will make sure that proper grammar and spelling is used. If you cannot formulate a simple 'How are you this evening' and instead prefer to write 'how r u?' I will be disinclined to talk. 4. If I give you means to contact me outside of collarme, please have the courtesy to respect my right to reject your advance. Pressuring me to do anything, fetish-wise or inane, will not garner you an iota of my respect. If I have refused, then continuing the ask me repeatedly the same question is not only rude but disrespectful. I wish to get to know you before I will even consent to meet you. I hold my personal safety to be paramount. Other than that, game on!

9/26/2008 6:37:07 PM: Mood Music: "You Learn" - Alanis MorrissetteI've had an interesting few weeks with conversations that have made my jaw drop. Have manners and propriety really gone out the window? Or am I missing something?1. Do not ask a woman what her chest size is on the first IM.2. Especially not on the first date.3. And certainly do not follow up any rejection of said question with "just tell me".4. When someone says they are too busy to talk on the phone, telling them to stop what they are doing and call is a fast way to be blocked. 5. Similarly, demanding to talk on the phone and then backtracking and saying you only wanted to verify gender strikes the astute mind as being... suspicious.6. When someone does not acquiesce to your "request", "demands", "questions", or whatever noun you want to use for inquiry, calling them "bitchy" or a "bastard" is not the tip top of etiquette.Alright, so maybe that sounds a bit lofty. Does not matter. I try to carry on genial conversation and polite discussion about non-sexual and non-BDSM topics so I can get a feel for someone. Figure out what they are like, who they are, what they dream about, etc. This is an essential to my need. I need to be able to respect someone I am with. If you start in with the personal questions right off the bat, I can't help but think that our interests and personalities are mismatched. That leads to another thing...7. If someone says that you asked a personal question of them and refuses to answer it, the appropriate response is not "but I need to know". You do not NEED to know. You WANT to know and do not care about whether or not you just crossed someone's boundaries. It's like telling someone you don't want an eggplant shoved up your ass but the other person deciding they want to make the attempt anyways for shits and giggles. If someone tells me "it's personal", I apologize and back off out of respect. Is that so hard?It feels like I preach a lot about respect and manners and the like though I might come off as a bit cool and detached. Part and parcel to my personality, I tend to stay true to my own feelings. That being said, it's always been my personal belief that a simple "Good evening, how are you tonight?" always sounds better to me than "hey sexy, how r u".What ever happened to our manners?Random Thought: If you are watching a scene with a few other people and someone sneezes, do you say "Bless you", let it slide, or use sign language? I mean, you don't want to do anything to bother the players and yet, it's a kneejerk reaction to say "bless you". Gwar! Social rules! _______________________________ 9/18/2008 5:28:31 PM: Mood Music: "Crash and Burn" - Savage GardenAs a personal note, this entry is dedicated to someone I care about very much who took their own life not too long ago.I wish to step away from fetishes and my own asanine ramblings on good wine and chenille socks as much as it pains me. I've been wrestling with my own grief for over a month now because I found out the day before my birthday that a friend of 10 years took her life for some reason that seemed relevent at the moment. Or earth-shattering. Or some other Armageddon reason. Maybe I'm still young yet and haven't gotten this whole death thing downpat but it's still shock. I've had family members die but not the ones that are this close to me like that. And even at that, it's natural causes! This wasn't that way. It wasn't nature's path. It's tempting to question the reasoning. What could be so wrong with living? What is so terrible that you don't want to live? Living is living. And screw anyone that pipes up about degenerative diseases or whatnot. Seriously. I am pertaining these questions to suicide, specifically. I dunno what took a month and a half for it to settle in. Maybe it was getting a program from the memorial service and seeing it in print that birth and death dates. Just seeing her picture on the cover holding a baby sea turtle and just smiling with that brilliant smile of hers, I just want to know what went wrong. But isn't that always the question? Why, why, why? But at the same time, even if we knew the answer, would it really truly matter? Would it change anything in us? Or would it give us a sense of completion or fragmentation at knowing the truth?I won't delude myself by saying "If I had only known!" Truth is, we had grown apart and she had moved away and she was more of a friend of my mother's than of specifically me. But still, she was a beautiful woman who had a knack for making me feel beautiful too even in my awkward gawky teenage years. Anyone who can give that sense of self-esteem to another should recieve it in equal measure and more. Even if I knew what she was going to do or had a hint of doing so, could I have changed it? Or is that the one question you should never ask yourself for fear that you'd end up breaking yourself further? I sat down earlier and just hugged the picture I have of her to me. I miss her, bottomline, and I will always miss her. What do I say aside from that? Do I ignore the pain of my own loss and be glad that she is at peace? Do I rage her decision and how selfish it is? Do I take this as a vital lesson to hold all the people I love just a little closer?Ultimately, there is no right or wrong answer, I think. It's different for everyone. For me, I choose to cherish the memories I have of her and wish that should she be reincarnated, let it be in a happier form. Just whatever body her soul happens to take, let it have that same brilliant smile that made you smile too no matter how you were feeling. _______________________________ 8/19/2008 9:14:23 PM: Mood Music: "Boston" - Augustana*elbows her friend* Boston, I know.Okay, so it's been a month and I am officially 23. Officially no less. As in, it's on public record. I got arrested on my birthday. Something about there being a law against doing poledances on stopsigns in full view of traffic. Haha, I kid.I did do a poledance on a speed limit sign once on a dare from a friend. Nearly cracked my skull open too but hey, it's all good.Anyone else enjoy Fay like I did? I now need to get the complex to get in my apartment and do something about some water damage my roommate and I noticed. I asked them to fix that shit once and they supposedly did but apparently not. Now i have a stripe of water damage across my living room wall and my feng shui just got funky. As in, I had to rearrange the salsa and fruit juice in the door of my fridge just to counteract the bad feng shui that water damage was giving off.Great stuff, eh?But seriously, happy Sunday to all! It's 3 AM, I've got a bottle of apple juice and an open jar of mandarin oranges and I'm lounging in silky pajamas. Heaven as my witness, there is no other way I could be any fucking happier right now. _______________________________ 7/28/2008 12:35:33 PM: Mood Music: "Ich Will" - RammsteinSo, perhaps 3 and a half years after the Navy gave me the grand boot from the DEP program, I find myself on the doorstep of the Army. And boy, are they eager to see me. Like kids getting to see Santa. Now for a little bit of Silk's ego stroking.So I talked with the recruiter the other day. Due to my Puerto Rican genes, I have junk in the trunk and need to lose a little weight. Okay, maybe I got the attic in there but I'm just slightly above the body fat requirements. I was informed that they could get the ball rolling once I lost that extra 1%. No biggie, I've been swimming at the pool to get the weight off and I see progress. Jobs. I gave my mom a heartattack when she heard what jobs I chose. Operations Specialist she was okay with but the Explosives Ordnance Disposal scared the hell out of her. Well, I asked for information on Diver, Military Police, Explosives Ornance Disposal, Psychological Operations and the whole 97 series of Counterintelligence jobs. Fun stuff! So I get to go take the ASVAB again since my old score of 92 of 99 isn't valid anymore. Pity, really. In short, go ARMY! These guys are rolling out that red carpet and I have every intention of walking down it. _______________________________ 7/26/2008 3:58:54 PM: Funny conversations~Me: I'll be hitting the big 2-3 on August 10th.RopeRegulus: The big 3-0?Me: No, 23. I'll be 23.RR:... you're just a baby! I have socks older than you!Me: Glad to know there are socks out there with more seniority than me.Ah, zest of life!