" i'm a submissive that can't find what she's looking for. Imagine that. lol It's like searching for..."

i'm a submissive that can't find what she's looking for. Imagine that. lol It's like searching for a marshmallow in a blizzard. WHY, oh WHY can't they make a flourescent ORANGE marshmallow, just for such an occasion? giggles

Maybe i'm asking for too much. Is there a man out there that knows what he wants and how to keep it once he gets it? A man that understands that being a dom is a HUGE responsibility? Managing yourself is hard enough, try managing a sassy sub with a quick wit, smart brain and independent. Now there's a challenge not many are up to the task of. The thing is, i'm not trying to be a dom, or a top even. i'm just being me. i've always been this way, i've always been submissive. i just never knew what the name of it was until 1999. Then it was like someone turned on the light.

That's why i have this need to make everyone happy. Why pleasing comes naturally to me, serving comes easy. Well, i shouldn't say easy because it's not. It's hard work, but when i hear the words good girl or good job, thank you, it makes it all worthwhile.

i'm a very polite person, i had an excellent Mother who taught me well and loved me unconditionally. She truly was an amazing woman.

i am not sure what all i'm "into" exactly yet, because i haven't found the One to trust completely yet. Trust, to me, is a huge issue. i'm not the adventerous type that says "Oh sure, i'll try anything once..." i almost wish i was. But i'm conservative… cautious, i worry about those i love, i care deeply and love with reckless abandon; sometimes jumping in head first when i should just stick my toe in to see how the water is. lol

i want a Man that has a good job, not because i'm high maintenance, but because i will not support him. i have a hard enough time keeping myself supported. He's the dom, it's his responsibility to make sure things are in order. i want a Man that's down to earth, can take a joke (whispers, cause i make a lot of them) and can laugh at himself as well. A Man that's honest, trustworthy, true to himself and his word. The old saying "A man is only as good as his word," has never been more true. He must be single, preferrably a non-smoker, drug free and only drinks socially, if at all.

i'm a bbw, as you can see by the picture. I've tried taking pictures that don't look like me, but they all seem to turn out just like me anyway. Funny how that happens. i keep expecting Alyssa Milano to appear in the picture of me. Unfortunately it hasn't happened yet, and i've even changed film brands several times... giggles