| My name is Jennifer.
I am and am not many things. All in all, I am not wholly displeased with who I am today.
I am a genuinely nice person, I am quite smart (in the many definitions of that word, I suppose) and though I can certainly see how some might expect me to be deadly dull, I'm actually quite fun, usually. I am not beautiful and am not sad that I am not. I love well and submit deeply to that emotion when it is nurtured; please do not nurture it willy-nilly.
I also find it hard to ramble about myself without a direct question being asked so… perhaps you can learn more about me by either reading my vast and, sometimes quite atrocious journal or… by peeking inside my head to see what it is I am hoping to find here.
I want to be a partner in a relationship and I want to walk through the rest of a life with you.
I want you to help me surrender to only you, with such profundity as to surely seem frightening, but to never ever be frightening.
I want to share my wonderful family with you and have them think you are great, just because I love you and you love me
I want to play Rockband and Diablo3 (finally!), and Trivial Pursuit and Truth or Dare with you.
I want to know I do things to and for you, and that I can add something wonderful to your life.
I want to grow under your guidance and learn from you, and want you to know and not be distressed by the fact that you will learn from me too.
I want to read aloud to you and hear your voice pick up the next chapter and continue the story while I stroke your hair.
I want to be your slut.. but not all the time. I am far too much to only be a slut (or any one thing), even if it thrills me when you take me there.
I want a family. I want them to be smart and feel loved and be happy and to be good people.
I want to know the smallest gestures, which mean things only to us and which can elicit the most deliciously deviant thoughts and responses, which you have designed.
I want to watch/listen /to/talk through an Opera together and show you why and what can be so wonderful and right, or wrong about it, to maybe even see you feeling that tingle of magic the convergence of the arts can create within a person...and I want to have you walk me through something which is that important to you too.
I want to cook for you and have parties with our friends both crazy and fun and sedate and intimate.
I want to kiss you passionately every day before we go off to work and the first second of seeing you when we get home.
I want to drink terrible beer from the same cup while listening to excellent jazz with crowds of people in the street and feel intimate with you.
I want to take hikes in thick woods and come to a clearing and share a picnic I packed with you on a soft blanket over tall grass.
I want to be so silly and stupid with my sisters as to have a Bacchanalian dance off, knowing how bad I am (and they are) at dancing, and have you enjoy yourself laughing at the display.
I want passionate, intimate and shocking things that I do not want so share in a profile.
I want to be taken by you, to feel owned, and want you to feel pleasure in owning me… THIS person..
I want to pick out what holidays we will choose to celebrate each year and make each one special to each of us in the smallest and biggest of ways, .
I want and sip champagne, and find out what coffee we both like best together… and to always remember so that I can make sure you have what you like best.
I want to be what you like best…. because it is inherent to who I am, to think you the very best, and to always try to make sure you know that.
(Apparently, you are the patient sort, I cannot help but think that is a good thing!) |
